*[[ Fairytale To Happen ]]*

Revelation and Encouragement

Come and walk with me
Let me bring you to the realm of mythology
And unleash the mystery that conceals inside me
Listen, for I speak only once

As long as I live, I will love only you
As long as I breathe, I will whisper only your name
Let me be the sun that envelops you with warmth
Let me be the water that suffice you from thirst

I was nostalgic and melancholy
But you made me valiant and unyielding
My world was na? but happy
Yet, you made it bliss and sophisticating

Please hear all I’m saying
Speak for truth and be real
Love and be gallant
Believe and choose your prophecy.

Sept. 15, 2005

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"WHEN LIFE RAVELS"

Last night I’ve read a passage from the Bible that says, “Whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it and it will be yours.? Mark 11:24
How do we stay calm when the world is falling apart? Sometimes we panic, we feel anxious, and we feel angry, belittled, and hopeless. The best thing we do is to pray. PRAY, PRAY and PRAY. But sometimes, we deem that God is not with us. We think he never listens to what we prayed. We think he disowned us. When the world is falling apart, GOD has ignored us because we prayed something and it did not happen.
I’ve read another book that explains how prayers are answered.
1. If the request is wrong, God says, NO.
2. If the timing is wrong, God says, SLOW.
3. If you are wrong, God says, Grow.
4. If the request is right, timing is right and you are right, God says, GO.

Sometimes prayers are direct. We ask and immediately receive what we’ve asked for. God will answer us on his timetable, not ours. Some answered are disguised, we ask for something and later recognized that God answered differently from our request. Some prayers were denied, its because God loves us too much to give what we’ve asked for. We should realize that God is never far from us.
When we pray, we should believe and he will fulfill our desires. If he delays them, it’s because he is increasing our perseverance, but if he denies them, he will give us strength and he will give something better for he knows us better than we knew ourselves.

Sept. 06, 2005

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CAN YOU KEEP A SECRET?

1. Well, I had one molar extracted when I was third Year College. At least just one.

2. I kissed my mother in her cheek just once, that was when I graduated in Elementary (because we are told to do so). At least I bought her a cake on her birthdays and gifts if there is an occasion.

3. I’m afraid of dogs and worms. A dog bit me when I was still a kid.

4. I used to sing before. I believe I had a very nice voice. The only person who told me that I can carry a tune was my childhood friend. So I stopped singing. But up until now I love music.

5. I love dancing. Everything about dancing. I'll tell you, I can dance like sexbomb dancers (juusssstt kiddding..)

6. I am independent. When I was still a kid, I went to school alone (Kindergarten) because my mom and pa went to work and left me with my yaya. Worst! My yaya had a boyfriend (who sells floorwax). The floorwax boy always go to our house every time my parents are out to work. So? My yaya forgot about me. I went home alone; I still remember I hid in the trees or posts whenever I see black cars because they told me that those are kidnappers. Hahaha (funny)

7. I used to go to TAEKWANDO with my cousins. But I stopped because I was so short and when I kick, it doesn’t reach their faces just to their arms or elbows or everywhere in their torso. Too bad!

8. I’m a body conscious. Ok, I’m worried because my waistline before was 24? Now it’s 25? I’ll do fifteen-minute exercise everyday.

9. When I take a bath, it takes 30 minutes. You know why? Because I have this morning rituals (like hair spa).

10. I always tell my friends I’m fine. But I had a friend who told me that deep inside I’m not fine. I am very perky and happy outside. He knew I’m having a shield to cover up the pain. Ok, I’m not fine because I’m in love with a friend.

11. When my mother asks me what viand I wanna eat, I’ll tell her anything just don’t let me eat monggos. I don’t eat gabi, okra, alugbati, kalabasa and spices. So, she’ll bring shells. Ma, I don’t eat shells either. Ok, she’ll give me sardinas. Fine!

12. I can’t forget when I told my mom that I want a powdered milk (Bearbrand). I was excited to mix it in my champorado (chocolate was from Gem, she bought it in Bohol). When I tasted my champorado with milk, I asked my mom, “what kind of milk did you buy?and she said ?oh I’m sorry it is Bearbrand 1plus, I didn’t notice it until I got here? What!? Ok, I gave my champorado to my nephews.

13. When I was in high school, I boasted my friends that I know how to swim. We had a game, I joined. It was high tide. I can’t reach the bottom of the sea. I grabbed my friend and told him ”Ok I don’t know how to swim?but I was not frightened…No, I was. I admit I was and they laughed.

14. I can never forget the day when I was still in Kindergarten. We were practicing our graduation. It was my turn to recite the poem assigned to me. My teacher was pregnant, she yelled at me bec she cannot hear my voice and hit me with her umbrella. I hate her until now.

15. I was a star back in highschool. Not a good star but a bad star. In short, I was infamous because I got late and I jumped off the fence with my boy friends. Our Property Custodian saw us at that instance. We were brought to Disciplinarian and were jailed in the stock room where full of rats for the whole morning.

16. I’d untie my shoe when arrived to school. During lunchtime we played “takyan? When I kicked, my shoe reached up until the branch of the Mahogany tree. I got my other shoe and threw it up. It did not work. I was brought again to the Disciplinarian, thanks to our janitor; he climbed and got it. From then on. We are not allowed to play “takyan?

17. I farted in front of my barkadas. We were having pratice for our mini play “Othello?at that time. We ate “camote q?then I farted. He told me?this is the first time I smell a girl’s fart? I told him “I feel honored?then we laughed.

18. I had my first kiss when I was 19 yrs old. The kiss lasted for uhhmmmm?I think 8mins.He broke the kiss.Ha! I won!

19. I have several moles in my body. Hidden parts of my body. One thing I have to boast, I have a mole in my tongue, at the tip of it. Well, I’m a good kisser. (Just kidding).

20. I love to wear T-back before, even if I’m wearing denim jeans, I wear T-back. When my friends told me that they don’t like it, I stopped. Ok, I wear panty shorts. No, I admit, I wear T-back sometimes.

21. I’m still a virgin. ? I think I am. Wait, let me check. Ok, I admit I am at my age.

22. I’m a dreamer. I dreamed about dancing the man I love.

23. I love poetry. Poetry is my passion. I started writing poems when I was 12yrs old. The choices of words were not that good but at least I made it at my level.

24. My parents always reprimand me because I’m not afraid to walk in the dark and go home late at night. I always told them “mas mahadlok pa si kamatayan naku? But, I’m scared.

25. I used Likas papaya as my bath soap for how many years becuase i wanna get white. However, it did not work, i tried Biolink, still the same. I switch to Silka, neither. I tried several bleaching soaps, but none of them.Ok, I'm not white after all. Now, I'm using safeguard.

SSSSSHHHHHHHHH…Now, can u keep a secret?

A letter to the man I love

This might be the greatest mistake I made in my whole life. It?s really hard to pretend, that things are just fine. I did not intend to fall for you. Sentiments just came in so quickly; it started when I dreamed of you one night. From then on, without being noticed, I fell in love.

Every time I look into your eyes, I see something is hidden or is it because I?m blind and I?m obsessed with the idea that I really like you. Crazy, isn?t it? Falling in love with you is like scourge, more than a blind fate. Funny, isn?t it? But the fact is you cannot reciprocate what I am feeling. Difficult, isn?t it?

Please don?t blame me for loving you. I beg you not to hate me. I am struggling and shivering, because I don?t wanna think that someday I will loose you. I know things are getting worse but I?m not yet tired. Though there are times that I feel I wanna quit but it doesn?t mean that I have to quit. Pathetic, isn't it?

Someday I will be able to let go of this feeling that I have imprisoned for how many months. I can forget you, not at this time but I will try. I don?t think I can, but I really want to. I am full of love but I have to find another person who deserves my love. I?ve always had this deep-down conviction that I?m not like every other girl and there is an amazingly exciting new life waiting for me just around the corner. Yes that?s true! Just be still, don?t worry if I love you, just glance and smile at me for that is more than a thousand hellos.

I am sentient that this is the biggest mistake and difficult quandary in my life. It?s weightier than what I felt from my previous relationships. This is higher than Himalayas Mountain, longer than Yangtze River but loving me back is more equivocal than the shimmer of the smallest star in the night.

Sept. 05, 2005

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"two hearts are meant
to be together...forever."

One look, One smile
One touch, One embrace
One kiss, One love

Two people, Two minds
Two souls, Two destinies

One road, One journey
One ending....
Together.

they lived happily ever after...

To the world you may be one person,
but to one person you may be the world.

- Bill Wilson -

Fairytale to happen...

Every girl has a dream,
love, marriage, self-esteem.
A boy to love, A baby to care for,
but ambitious women always want more.

I have a dream that repititiously shatters,
and it's hard to believe anything else matters.
Troubles that seem so far away,
always reappear the very next day.
Loving words I need to hear,
because my heart has doubts I can't seem to bear.

I try to believe but I'm truly amazed
and thoughts of you just leave me dazed.
One touch from you and I'm a raging fire with burning flames.
But another's touch just isn't the same.

Right now I supose that things are fine
and I hope someday to call you mine.
My heart doesn't lie,
what I'm saying is true,
I will never love anyone,
as much as I love you.